Tuesday, 15 January 2013

Slow Start!

So I only got out once last week.  Mother Nature has not been cooperating! We had another 6 inches drop and then a big cold snap so the roads are really icy and uneven.  Had to talk the hubby into a track pass, and he finally relented so this week I will start at the track! I am feeling really down about it.  I feel like I have put myself so far behind.  I know I can always continue on, but it's just frustrating as I know how far I would be if I'd never hurt myself. 

weight:235.4
Waist : 42
Hips :53
Bust : 52

On a plus..found these super yummy chocolate snacks! They are sweet and tasty!  Only thing is I have an aversion to bananas.  I love them, but they don't love me.  Usually end up with a tummy ache and diarrhoea.  I was hoping that dried bananas might be different.  I have a reaction but it is way milder then fresh bananas.  Just a bit of a tummy ache, so that's OK! I can handle that. 

So tomorrow I am heading up to the Canada Games Tournament Capital Centre and going to get a month pass to the track.  Then I am going to make sure I get back into it.  No more being super careful.  I don't know if it's just fear or caution, but I am so scared I am going to hurt myself again and it really hurt! I remember every detail...the sound, the pain.  And I get a sick feeling in my stomach. I have a feeling my fear is making my recovery longer as I am procrastinating and making excuses.  I have to face that fear...head on!  Easy to say...harder to do! But onwards and downwards we go!!

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