The First Phase

So this journey began...long before it really began! When I was 13 I knew I was different.  Girls my age just weren't as busty..they weren't even close.  I was a D cup and felt abnormal, fat, and embarrassed! I wasn't fat...120lbs 5'2" tall.  Not fat at all!  But my cup runneth over...literally! By the time I was 18 I was sitting in a Doctors office with a FF cup!  I begged him for a breast reduction, but he said because of my age, and the possibility of having kids and breastfeeding, I should wait until I was done with those things to have it done.  I'm so glad I did wait!  Now, I am 35, I've had 2 beautiful kids and breastfed those kids till they were both 2!  I am so blessed for them, but they left me very deflated.  My sizable bust...44H is still excessively large, but the once full cup, is now a deflated version of itself.  They are long and flat.  Still large but indistinguishable as breasts.  Plus the work they did on my tummy...I feel hideous.  I am overweight now, not that my husband or I are concerned about this, but I would like to look how I feel.  So this is how I shall begin...My Incredible Journey!!  I went to my GP yesterday, scared that he would look at me and say..no way.  You don't need a Breast Reduction..uh uh!!  I was so nervous...almost like a dream job interview...it was something I had dreamt of for so long!  Called into his office, I sat down and explained my dilemma.  He nodded and said definitely.  He asked if I had grooves in my shoulders, I said yes, and showed him, and I explained about the back pain.  The debilitating back pain...and to be graphic, it gets so bad it is hard for me to even wipe my bum or put on shoes.  Embarrassing! He put my referral in to a Plastic Surgeon and now I wait...wait to hear from her office and book an appointment to see her.  I scour the Internet for every video, picture and blog on Breast Reductions.  Needed reassurance that I am making the right decision, that I deserve this, that it is FINALLY here!!!  So I will take you on my journey with me...come along...on My Incredible Journey!