Naughty Naughty Girl

OK...I admit it...I have been very naughty.  I still haven't been able to run..walking at this point is still an issue, and I have been going crazy on the chocolate.  The hubby bought me one of those huge toblerone's (I get one every year) for Christmas, and I pretty much inhaled the whole thing. 

weight:235.4
Waist : 42
Hips :53
Bust : 52

This was my morning.  I'm ashamed that I am up 5.4 lbs, although maybe a little secretly happy it's only 5.4  considering what a glutton I have been.  I have decided that I will get back on my eating track, and then, next week, I will attempt my first run!  I'm talking carefully..run 1 minute, walk 5!  Back to the very beginning and if it hurts too much, I'll stop. I don't want to re injure myself. Although, right now, I am sad that I have put myself back at least a month if not more.  I was hoping to hit my goal in May, but more June now.  Poop.  OK..no self-pity.  I'm the one who was stuffing my face with chocolate like it was a life source. 

On a lighter note, how was your Christmas?  Mine was good, I really enjoy seeing the kids' face light up when they wake up and see Santa has come.  Santa this year gifted us with a wonderful cold.  The only one so far who has escaped it is Daddy!  The rest of us are up to our eyeballs in tissues and eucalyptus.  Oh well...my cold medicine is setting me off yawning and I feel foggy..I will end before this gets weird.  Onwards and downwards on this journey.  Even when I have to go over hills, I see the finish line!

Week of Pain

What a craptacular week I have had! I've gained 3 pounds in 1 week, all the while stuck on the couch, with my foot up. I was only allowed up to go to the bathroom. I won't even get into the throbbing and pain that kept me up all night.  So, I sprained my ankle, and tore ligaments.  I have had bruising from my toes, to halfway up my calf.  I never knew how painful a sprain could be.  I always thought people were being wimps, but after having one....I can honestly say, they REALLY are that bad!  I still can't walk properly after a whole week, and I can't go back to work or even think of getting back to my running! I hate sitting on my butt all day, I hate disappointing my co-workers and I am so upset that the scale is going up after I worked so hard!! I know I have to heal, I know it needs time, but it is so frustrating! I am FINALLY starting to feel a bit better.  I can walk on it a little, although my other leg is getting sore from compensating.  Hubby went back to work, so I am having to take the kids to and from school again!  The lack of a paycheck is daunting, especially with Christmas almost here.  I know I will be back to work next week, but when will I be able to run?  I can't say that my depression from this hasn't set me back in more ways then one.  It's hard to stay on an eating plan, especially when all you can do is sit there and mope.  I have been cheating......a lot!!! UGH! I am more then a little disappointed in myself.  I truly hope after this week I can get back into a regiment.  I will start slow...walk the 5km.  Then I will start at the bottom, walk 5 minutes, run 1 minute.  Go from there.  I don't want to risk a re-injury.  So this has been my week...

Weight : 233.4
Waist : 42
Hips :53
Bust : 52

I'm hoping to not gain too much more weight and to start back on track soon!  My next scheduled entry is Christmas Day!! I may wait till the next day....MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! Onwards and downwards..hopefully!!

Catastrophe

Weight : 230.8
Waist : 42
Hips :53
Bust : 52

 Well...it happened.  Worst case scenario...I fell.  It was snowing for like 2 days, and I was being a trooper.  Got all geared up, put on my snow tracks that go over my shoes for grips and headed out.  First km was OK, but I was finding the vehicles were coming really close.  You couldn't see the lines in the road at all, and they were way over in the walk area.  There are no sidewalks where I was so I only had there, or the ditch.  I started getting more nervous when the ditch was almost indistinguishable from the road and vehicles were coming non stop so I decided to walk until I could get to a safer area.  I guess I went too far over, couldn't see that there was a drop down ditch and down I went.  My foot slid down, I went over it and the wrong way and heard a loud pop.  The pain was instant and extreme.  I lay there...trying to move and couldn't get up.  I started to try and get my phone to call the hubby, but I was shaking so bad from the pain, I couldn't seem to work my phone.  A lady yelled to see if I was OK, I said I wasn't.  She came over to try help me.  She didn't know what to do, but just her being there helped.  A cab driver stopped and said he would drive me wherever I needed to go.  The lady and the cab driver helped me into the van.  I thanked the lady so many times, and headed for home to access.  I finally got a hold of the hubby and that's when I broke down.  So embarrassed, I cried in this poor cabby's van, and tried to apologise.  He laughed and said it was OK, that I didn't need to apologise.  He helped me into my house where I cried harder as I tried to get my shoe off, and that's when I saw the softball shaped swelling on the side of my foot.  I was SURE it was broken. So off to the hospital I went with my hubby and sister.  After 4 hours and an xray, it wasn't broken, but I had tore all the ligaments in my ankle.  1-2 weeks of rest and physio is required.  Oh snap...this puts a HUGE dent in my plans.  I have to figure out how to exercise without using my foot.  As soon as I am able, I will start walking...I think the running will take longer.  I was so sad,  not only that I can't run, but that I can't work.  Christmas time and not working is terrible.  So this week hasn't been the best.  I am so close to the 220's too!!! UGH!  So this is where I am at.  I will continue to try.  Continue to work at it.  Onwards and downwards...hopefully downwards.  At least not upwards.  This is only a temporary set back...I refuse to give up! But I have definitely decided that I hate the snow! :)

Candy Cane Cuties

Weight : 232.0
Waist : 42
Hips :54
Bust : 52

I got straight to the point today! Down only .8 lb, but I took 1 inch off waist, hips and bust!  So it was a good week.  Ran my Santa Shuffle and did it in a personal best of 49.40!  It was a lot different then the Boogie I ran in the spring, but still good.  They weren't doing time at all, but I had my endomondo on to track my time so I could know for me.  Plus, they only had 109 medals available, since they didn't expect the high turn out, and I was able to get a medal!  I was very proud of myself, and got overly emotional about the whole thing!  My sister ran me in and was very supportive, then when I came to the last .5 km, my whole family was there waiting for me. They all ran me in and it felt so amazing and just the push I needed.  I can't tell you how good it felt!   The picture is of my sister on the left...she is the one training for a full marathon, and my inspiration.  On the right is my gorgeous, amazing niece, and smack dab in the centre is a very nervous me.  I always get really, really nervous before a race.  Feel like I am going to get sick.  But when I start running, all is well.  So I keep trucking on.  I am really hoping next week sees me into the 220's!!! I wanna kiss these 230's goodbye! I feel good though, really good and am feeling positive about my future!  Onwards and downwards on my incredible journey!! Only 52lbs to go.  I can't wait to get my surgery and be able to run without wearing 2-3 bra's!! This week I will continue my 5km runs, 3 times a week, but will try and up it to a 4/2 split (run 4, walk 2) and keeping track of my calories, etc with spark people!  Here's to another wonderful week!