Up and down...

I feel like I am on a Roller Coaster...one week I am down and feeling great, the next I am plateaued and feeling down! I know it'll be like that, especially since I am feeling myself in a groove.  I can now comfortably track my consumption without needing to write it out, although I keep doing it just for the management.  And the running has become a routine!  I have my race on Saturday, so I am excited and nervous.  OK...Here's the details for this week...

Weight : 232.8
Waist : 43
Hips :55
Bust : 53

Down  1.8 lbs from last week and 1 inch on the hips.  In total I am down 20.2 lbs, and that feels really good!!  I feel good about the weight loss too since so many people are now noticing and commenting!  That makes it feel all worthwhile! Plus outgrew my 44H bra and am now in a G!  Smaller boobies are the ultimate goal!  Had a gnarly flu on Tuesday night and Wednesday.  It was horrible, and could have contributed to my weight loss this week.  I am hoping I was able to keep myself sufficiently fed on chicken soup to combat any starvation mode weight gain next week! It was a rough one though!  The balancing of calories/fat/protein/ carbs and not starving yourself is so hard, you can't under eat or your body thinks it's starving and stores everything, but you can't over eat or you just get fat.  Such a rigid line!

Anyways, staying on track and keeping myself accountable and motivated! You'll see me running in my candy cane coloured tutu this weekend!  Onwards and downwards on my incredible journey!

Hip Flexor...what?!?

Weight : 234.6
Waist : 43
Hips :56
Bust : 53

OK..2 lbs down.  Not as much as I hoped but unfortunately I went a little too hard last week and buggered my hip.  It hurts every time I walk and throbs at night.  I have been told it's my hip flexor and is caused when I don't properly stretch, and sit for long periods.  Usually when I am on the computer! So this week I have to take it easy and just go for walks...no running. So my cardio is not where it should be.  Also, I can honestly say I haven't been properly counting my calories.  I have quite a few times said...oh it's only XX calories...no big deal, and not include it. These add up.  This is nobodys fault but mine.  Although people are definitely starting to notice.  I have had lots of people comment and I have finally reached the point of fitting into my original wedding ring set again! I have reached the 1/4 mark in my weight loss as well.  I am 1/4 the way to my goal!! 18.4 lbs lost! I am now looking forward to kissing the 230's goodbye!! I haven't been in the 220's in over 5 years!

Now..let's talk about the sagging skin.  Already I am looking like a deflating balloon.  The skin is starting to droop and sag. Not really very appealing but a definite sign of weight loss.  Thanks to my 2 beautiful children I had lots and lots of stretch marks, and now that the fat under it has started to go, the sagging and such  is brutal.  I can pull it and stretch it out.  I am somewhat...horrifically...drawn to it. Now...if I can get the tummy tuck, it'll look magnificent, and it could get rid of a dumb, I'm 18 and it seemed like such a great idea at the time, tattoo!!! Anyways, I am motoring on, and as soon as my hip feels better, I will be running again.  For now, I am speed walking my way along!! Hoping for wonderful things next week!! Onwards and downwards along the journey we go!! So much closer to my goal!!!

Another Plateau...

 Yes..It has happened again!  Another Plateau.  The only thing I have lost is inches, but a loss is a loss!  I can't be mad about that! 

Weight : 236.6
 Waist : 43
 Hips : 56
 Bust : 53

Do have some issues...like the hazards of running in the winter.  Ran when it was super cold and windy, and I only had running Capri's. Gave myself wind burn, and darn did that hurt.  My legs were red and itchy for a while!  So I went out and bought a cheap pair of running leggings to keep my legs warm. Also picked up some snow traks, they are these elastic and metal grippers that go right on your shoes.  Ran last night after it had done a big snowfall and then melted part of the day, also one of my first night runs.  It was slushy, muddy, snowy and not a lot of sidewalk space without snow.  I definitely noticed it as I had to spend a lot of time dodging snow chunks, mud puddles and all sorts of other obstacles.  I can honestly say though, it was one of my best runs yet!  It felt really good, and even though I was soaked up to my ankles with ice water and mud, it was wonderful! Quiet, calm, soothing and I felt awesome! Ended my run feeling like I could go another 5 km more!  I have faith my next week weigh in will be a good one.  My sister did say it may take a week for a bad/good week to get to you, so I know I will have a great week.  I am feeling very positive, although I have been fighting some serious demons the past few days.  Hungry all the time, wanting to eat bad foods, and trying to talk myself out of my runs.  I know that the person in my head has poor self esteem, and I know I self sabotage.  This is no different.  I have started seeing definite changes in my body and perhaps that inner voice is scared, or feels I don't deserve it so it starts saying for me to stop.  I have to fight it quite a bit!  More and more lately. The minute I start doing good, it starts up.  I started seeing sagging skin on my belly, not the most attractive thing in the world, but an unmistakable sign the weight is coming off.  That voice must have gotten all shook up and went into overdrive.  That was why I had the night run.  The voice kept talking me out of my run all day, I finally said NO...I need to do this, and it was the best run!  OK...now for a recap, it has been 8 weeks since I began this journey...2 months!! 

1 month ago                           2 months ago
Weight : 242.4                       253
Waist : 45                               48
Hips : 57                                57
Bust : 54                                56

1 month                                  2 months
down 5.6 lbs                          16.4
down 2 inches                        down 5 inches
down  1 inch                          down 1 inch
down 1 inch                           down 3 inches

Holy..that puts stuff in perspective!!  16 lbs...5 inches off my waist?!? WOW!!!  That feels really, really good!! My hips seem to be my trouble spot, but I have always been really hippy.  Maybe I will look into some extra exercises to get those down a bit!  OK..here's to another wonderful week, and another wonderful month! Can't wait to see how far I'll be next time!!  Onwards and downwards! What an incredible journey this is!

Tricks and treats

Halloween was on Wednesday and after a week of no weight loss, I was a little afraid! All that candy wanting to go in my tummy!! My kids would never know! I was already sad about not losing, but I stayed strong!  I told myself to not even have one.  I know myself.  Once I get that one, I'll talk myself into another, then another and it becomes a terrible cycle!  So abstinence is best! I'm glad I did! Here's the details:

Weight : 236.6
 Waist : 44
 Hips : 56
 Bust : 54

Yay! Down 4.2 lbs!  I am in the 230's! That makes me insanely happy!  My schedule this week has been running 3/3 (that's run 3 minutes, walk 3 minutes) split.  Been getting ready to run The Santa Shuffle December 1st!  We are going as The Candy Cane Cuties!  My sister for my birthday got my special socks and a running headband the soaks up the sweat! Says Run Girl Run!  I love it! On my last run had a bit of pain in my knees.  Had to slow my pace a bit so I am running 5km in about 51-53 minutes depending on my route.  I would like to beat my PB of 49 minutes!  I've had a few coworkers notice the weight loss, but not too many!  They say it takes 4 weeks for me and close family to notice, 8 weeks for friends and 12 weeks for strangers.  Next week is 8 weeks! 56.6 lbs to go!  Wow...that doesn't seem as daunting as 70! Onwards and downwards we go!!!